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Page Contents: Introduction / The Rage from Feeling Abandoned / The Rage Continues / The Imaginary, the Real, and the Symbolic / To Heal the Rage

 

pSYCHOANALYTIC writers tend to focus on identity—or, to be more precise, the lack of a stable identity—as the core of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). But in my experience, given what I know about identity (it’s all a fraud—a social illusion), the real core of BPD, and other personality problems with Borderline elements, is rage. Rage is a raw and primitive form of anger as a response to intellectual, physical, or emotional abandonment.

  
The Rage from Feeling Abandoned

If you have problems with borderline symptomatology, and if you look closely, you will see that all of your interpersonal difficulties in both the past and the present were—and are—based in feelings of rage as a result of being—or feeling—unnoticed and emotionally abandoned. You will find that your whole being is given over—consciously or unconsciously—to inflicting hurtful revenge on the world around you for neglecting your emotional and physical needs.

In essence, this rage is a dramatic attempt to “get back at” the person who injured you. Even masochistic self-abuse (also called self-mutilation) can have a component of this revenge. In cutting, for example, you let out your rage in slow, “controlled” doses; in seeing your blood, you see yourself showing your wound—your life’s blood—to the “Other” who, you feel, has disavowed the value of your life.

So, too, attempts at suicide are attempts at revenge. “I’ll show them! Maybe when I’m dead they will realize how miserably they’ve treated me!”

Of course, suicide can also have the component of a desire to silence the rage. Drugs, alcohol, and sexuality can also be used to “silence” the rage. But none of these attempts to distract your attention from your rage can ever be successful. What is rage, after all, but an infant crying because she has been abandoned? Ignoring her and walking away won’t silence her crying. The only way to soothe her is to pick her up and find out what she needs—precisely what your parents didn’t bother to do.

  
The Rage Continues: Pushing Away

Yes, when you were a child, your father abandoned you emotionally, if not also physically. Maybe he was alcoholic; maybe he was emotionally distant; maybe he was weak and timid; maybe he was abusive; maybe he abandoned the entire family. Maybe your mother was harsh and critical and, not knowing how to reach out to you in real love, abandoned you emotionally as well. And to cope with that pain, you protected yourself by pushing them away. You found your revenge on them by becoming emotionally closed off; you hid your true feelings from them, and you acted out in disobedience to hurt them.

But now, as you are older, the rage continues. Whenever others offend you, you become enraged and you push them away, just as you pushed your parents away. Everyone who offends you, you push away.

  

The dynamic of pushing away actually begins as a benign defense in childhood when, confronted with your parents’s general lack of real love you say, if only silently to yourself in frustration, “Stop!” All you want is for the mistreatment to stop. But then this initial protective act grows into an aggressive act. You slowly transition from passively trying to stop the pain to actively getting revenge by pushing away anyone who offends you.

  

Sooner or later, then, you will look around and feel completely alone. “Look!” you say to yourself. “I’m all alone! Even God has abandoned me!” But God hasn’t abandoned you. You did it all to yourself. You pushed them all away yourself. You pushed them away in rage.

  
“It’s Your Fault!”

When children have to cope with dysfunctional parents—especially when the mother is demanding and the father is absent physically or emotionally—they learn to suppress their own needs and capitulate to the needs of the parents. Essentially, the children learn that hiding their true thoughts and feelings is the surest way to survive.

Eventually, the child will carry this emotional hiding right into adulthood, where it will cause frustrating difficulties in interpersonal relationships. Always holding back your true thoughts and feelings, you will feel constantly misunderstood. And then something odd happens. Blind to your own psychological defenses, and unable to see your role in the communication difficulties, you will blame others for everything. “It’s your fault!” You will always be at odds with others because, in blaming them, you fail to see that you are unconsciously speaking the angry words—“It’s your fault!”—you feared so deeply to say to you own parents.

  

This dynamic explains why BPD clients are so dreaded by many psychotherapists. If the psychotherapists haven’t done their own psychological scrutiny to immunize themselves from from getting caught in the unconscious of their clients, those unwary psychotherapists will find that no matter how hard they work, no matter how much of an effort they make, it only takes one BPD client to make them feel like miserable failures.

  

How can there ever be healing when those words of blame—“It’s your fault!”—are constantly on your lips?

  
The Imaginary, the Real, and the Symbolic

Now, some persons will insist that because your original wound happened in your early infancy, before you could communicate with language (that is, in a pre-verbal psychological state), the psychotherapist must take on the actions of a caring, supportive parent until you can experience pre-verbal healing, and then you can progress to a higher, cognitive level of treatment. Well, that idea misses the point that you are now an adult with adult language skills, and that the point of the treatment is to give adult linguistic expression to a trauma that overwhelmed you as an infant precisely because the trauma could not be contained symbolically in language.

So what does “symbolically in language” mean? Well, here it will be necessary to explain the three realms of psychological experience.

 
The Imaginary

The Realm of the Imaginary derives from the pre-verbal state of childhood. As children, we need—and desire—others to take care of our needs, but, without language, we conceive of this caretaking imaginally; that is, as images in our minds. Hence the realm of the imaginary is all in our heads, so to speak; it’s all based in the expectation that your needs should be fulfilled, and it provokes anger when your needs aren’t fulfilled.

  

Now, when a parent takes care of a helpless infant, the caretaking can be an act of pure—rather than imaginary—love in which the parent is concerned only for the infant’s ultimate good.
 
But once the child becomes capable of language and independent thought, then caretaking can fall back into the imaginary realm and degenerate into mere bribery, in which a parent “gives” only to manipulate the child with game-playing and guilt into behaviors more suited to the parent’s comfort than the child’s well-being.
 
Even in adulthood the desire for romantic fulfillment in another person resides in the realm of the imaginary because romantic fulfillment depends on fantasies of someone giving you what makes you feel good. As hard as it is to admit it, and as much as it contradicts popular culture, romantic sentiment is based in self-indulgence, not in a selfless love.

Furthermore, the pursuit of happiness, which characterizes contemporary culture, also belongs to the realm of the imaginary. Whether it be the “happiness” of drugs or alcohol or food or sexual stimulation or extreme risk-taking or athletic triumph or political triumph, it all points back to an infant wrapped in unconscious bliss, protected—at least momentarily—from the reality of its own vulnerability.

  

 
The Real

The Realm of the Real  is the place of our essential fragmentation, vulnerability, and death. It’s the “place” where we find ourselves wounded and helpless. To most persons, it’s a terrifying place, and so most persons will do most anything to hide this reality from their own awareness. In fact, that’s the psychological function of a symptom: to hide a horrifying reality behind mental and physical manifestations such as addictions, anxiety, depressed mood, insomnia, lethargy, nightmares, weight gain, and so on.

Psychologically, then, when you encounter the real you experience a trauma. Or, more precisely stated, you experience a trauma if you encounter the real with nothing but symptoms and defenses from the Imaginary Realm.

 
The Symbolic

The Realm of the Symbolic is the realm of language. The truth is, when “bad” things happen to you, that is reality, but when, under the guidance of someone trained to interpret the unconscious, you learn to voice your pain openly and honestly in language, you enter into a psychotherapeutic aspect of the Realm of the Symbolic, and horror can be given containment. Learning to speak about pain and terror provides a sense of safety through a compassionate acceptance and “taming,” as it were, of your “wild” unspoken—and secret—thoughts and feelings. Thus it truly becomes possible to draw wisdom from pain and tragedy. For example, as a result of talking about dreams, or of exploring mental associations of one thing to another, an image can be formed of the hidden desires that may be motivating your self-defeating behavior.

  
To Heal the Rage

So, to heal your rage, it will be necessary (a) to recognize that your rage affects you to the core of your very being. It usually takes good, competent psychotherapy to do this—and it takes patience and emotional sensitivity. Then it will be necessary (b) to recognize in the moment how feelings of rage follow right on the heels of feelings of insult, abandonment, and helplessness. And then it will be necessary (c) to push past your fear and make the conscious decision to respond to that insult without rage.

(a)

The Triggers of Anger

Learn to look for the actual events (notice the plural) that have been bothering you recently. Take each one separately. What are all the feelings about that event? (It won’t be just anger, because anger is the final, hostile reaction to all the other feelings.) When you have them all separated out, then you have an idea of what is really happening to you, apart from the anger.
 

(b)

The Emotional Bridge

Next, follow each example of hurt back into its roots in the past to other times and circumstances when you felt the same way. Carefully scrutinize your childhood and examine your memories of painful events to discover what you were really feeling then, in those circumstances.

  

Remember, your impulsive reactions to present injuries are the unconscious expression of the emotions and fantasies you originally experienced, but suppressed, in childhood.
 

  

(c)

The Remedy

Having understood the previous two steps, now deal with each event separately, according to the thoughts and emotions specific to that event. Do something constructive and creative about each problem individually, something emotionally honest and not based in the desire to hurt the other as you have been hurt. That is, choose something different from our culturally popular Satanic Rule: “Do to others what they do to you.” Choose something based in true love.

  

Keep in mind here that the part of you that falls into rage has the emotional maturity of a two year old child. When you feel frightened, it’s as if you become two years old again; you become a terrified and angry victim, and all rationality and trust flies out the window.

It will be important, then, that the adult part of you be able to listen to the frightened child part of you, as a wise adult would listen to a child: with patience and kindness. Be gentle while the child cries and screams. Give the child permission to cry. Then be firm in guidance. “You’re crying because you feel unloved, right? Well, to be loved it is necessary to show love to others. So let’s dry your tears, understand what happened, and find a way for everyone to be treated with respect.”
 

  

It’s as simple as a-b-c. And that difficult. Because, essentially, the healing process requires that you surrender your unconscious satisfaction in being a victim and then learn to give to the world around you the very thing your parents failed to give to you: real love.

You have been rejecting love. You are even now rejecting love. Nothing in your life will make sense until you remedy this problem.
 


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