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I have been in therapy for about 5 1/2 years. My therapist, as far as I can tell, is competent and wise. After the first year of therapy, I went through a 12 day manic episode. Since then, I have painstakingly worked to achieve a greater awareness of my unconscious minddepression, rage, high anxiety, feeling overwhelmed, terror, fear, crying so intense I feel I could shatter, etc. I feel like I imagine a soldier would feel living day by day in the combat field. Its so draining: I want a break; I want to sleep without waking with terrifying dreams; I want not to feel absolutely isolated and alone; I want not to cry so intensely; I want the suicidal thoughts to stop. I feel that I am improving; yet, it is so hard to preceive when wading through so many repressed emotions and conflicts. I ask him constantly how long it takes for the process to end, but he only says that we will know when it does. How long should therapy last? Is 5 1/2 years too long? How come everytime I feel like Ive taken a step forward, the emotions coming flooding back in? I wish the effects would lessen, but they only get stronger. When will it abate?
You ask a question that started the whole managed care business in the first place. How long should psychotherapy last? Well, how long is a piece of string? So lets look at how you end your message: When will it abate? And now lets look at how you began your message: you have been in psychotherapy for 5½ years, and after the first year you had a 12 day manic episode. So whats missing between the beginning and the end? Well, actually, whats missing is what came before the beginning. Now, this might sound obscure. But you cannot navigate to where youre going if you dont know where you are, and you wont know where you are if you dont know where you have been. In other words, you say that after a year of treatment you had a manic episode. But you dont say if you had manic episodes before you began treatment. You dont even say why you began treatment. So there you are, a soldier in the combat field who doesnt know what he is fighting for or with whom hes fighting. Hes just there, fighting. In tears. So when your so-called therapist says that you will know it when it does, what does that mean? Does he even know what he means? Maybe you need to find outand when you do, thats when your psychotherapy might begin.
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